This post is part of The 30 Days or ARPil event created by Pizza Maid of Pizzamaid.moe. You can find more information about it in here and the 30 questions here. If you are interested on seeing who is participating on the event, there is a block to the right with all blogs that are part of it too. Let me know if I forgot someone or put someone in there by mistake. 🙂
All my answers will be about my character Rakuno, my ratonga monk in Everquest 2. From this point on it will be him doing all the talk!
Question 7: Is there one event or happening your character would like to erase from their past? Why?
After leaving Freeport I spent many years regretting my years in the gang. I did too many bad things there, so bad that I often wished I had the power to go back in time and do everything differently. Then I started to think: if I never did any of that would I ever leave Freeport? Maybe I would become something worse, like a thief. Or an assassin. Or even join the Freeport militia which isn't all that much better than those.
Or maybe I could have end up in a life that wasn't so bad. Maybe I could have become a bar owner somewhere, paying protection money to the local thugs. Or a shop owner, never asking my sources where the products came from, just passing it along for some profit. But then what would happen to all the people who I helped as a monk. Would someone else have stepped to help them? Would they have just found a way to overcome their problems without external help? Or would events just get worse for them?
So perhaps it is a good thing we can't change our pasts. Because there isn't any guarantee things would have turned for the better. And isn't just our lives that would be affected either but the lives of everyone we had contact with. The best we can do then is to learn from the past, try to not to repeat our mistakes and work towards a better future.